Journey to God’s Plan for My Life


2nd Week Long Intensive at Liberty University…  After this class I will be halfway to earning my degree.  30/60 hours completed!  The journey is moving right along.  

Sitting in Lynchburg, Va preparing for my second week long intensive course.  I am excited to be here!  God wanted me in this session, during these specific dates, and I am looking forward to seeing what He has up His sleeve.  I already have the sweetest, funniest, and amazing future counselor as a roommate and another friend from my intensive course will be in my class and staying at the same hotel.  I will get to learn from the same wise professor Dr. Dumont, that I was honored to learn from in my last intensive.  God is already working!  He has something big planned and I can’t wait to find out how He reveals Himself this week.  If it is anything like the last intensive I took, I think I’m in for awesome and overwhelming experience.  I hope I cry less this time than I did in the previous intensive! However, the tears that bombarded my facial expressions in the last “Counseling Techniques” class, birthed abundant and pure healing in my soul.  If tears are required to continue my path to healing and essential for making me into a Godly and effective counselor than so be it!  I am on a journey to following God’s will and becoming exactly “Who God wants me to be”.  



What If I Were Told?




When my daughter was a mere infant, just days old, I made up a special prayer song for her.  It goes something like this, “Dear Jesus, be with Caroline.  Watch over her and keep her safe.  Dear Jesus be with Caroline, watch over her and keep her safe.  Help her grow to be Christian and to love and obey the Father.  Dear Jesus be with Caroline watch over her and keep her safe.”  Every night for 2 1/2 years the two of us sing this prayer, it’s pretty cute as she folds her hands and sweetly sings in her little tiny girl voice.  We sing several other songs, many of which we’ve made up.  However, every night I tell her, “Caroline you are loved!  You are so special!  You are loved!  Mommy loves you!  Jesus loves you!”  I want her to know more than anything that she is loved, cherished, and special.  

Tonight as I lay there with my little girl, I thought to myself…

What if…  I was told I was loved everyday?

What if… I was told I was cherished daily?

What if… I was told I was beautiful everyday?


How would I be different today?


Would I be more whole?

Would I fear rejection less?

Would I be more confident in who I am?

Would I be a better mother?

Would I be less sensitive?

Although, I ask myself these questions.  I realize there is no real answer.


I know one thing…

I NEVER want my children to ask themselves these questions.


I will tell them everyday, every hour, and at every opportunity.

How much they’re loved.  

How much they’re cherished.

How they’re truly special. 


I want to give them every “healthy building block” I can pass on to them.

Life is not easy!

Life hurts!

Life has a way of throwing massive curve balls!


I want to prepare my children for the world!

I WILL tell them of my love!

I WILL tell them of God’s love!

I WILL hug them… kiss them… cuddle with them.  

All the Time!

All the time!



Tender Moments that Melts a Momma’s Heart

It’s the simple moments of parenting that catch my attention.  This morning my six year old got out the crayons, drew me a picture of the Bible (I didn’t know it was a Bible until he told me), but the picture melted my heart.  On the front of the Bible it said, “I Love My Mom”  -the bible.  With a picture of my little man and his mom at the bottom.  

It is these precious moments that encourage my heart and make me happy to be a mommy!   




Other precious moments, where my two youngest children, are hanging out at the table watching Daniel Tiger together, coloring, and just being friends.  These are the tender moments a momma lives to see. 



These are the moments that too often get overlooked but when I take time to STOP and absorb the everyday tenderness, I realize how truly blessed I am!

Proverbs 22:6 “Train up a child in the way they should go and when they are old they shall never depart from it.”

Mathew 19:14 “Jesus said, “Let the little children come unto me and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of Heaven belongs to such as these.”



Thanking God For the Petty Frustrating Things of the World


God’s word is comforting my spirit today and reminding me of what is important… His will!  Thought I would share the verses God spoke into my weary spirit this morning.


John 16:33, “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace.  In this world you will have trouble.  But take heart!  I have overcome the world”


Words from my devotional this morning, reminding me to focus on what is important and to simply trust in Him.


“Learn to love above your circumstances.  This requires focused time with Me, the one who overcame the world.  Trouble and distress are woven into the very fabric of this perishing world.  Only My Life in you can empower your to face this endless flow of problems with good cheer.   As you sit quietly in My Presence, I shine Peace into your troubled  mind and heart.  Little by little, you are freed from earthly shackles and lifted up above your circumstances.  You gain my perspective on your life, enabling you to distinguish between what is important and what is not.  Rest in My Presence, receiving Joy that no one can take away from you.”


I will be honest, my spirit has taken a beating this past 8 weeks, through a crude professor and other personal life struggles.  I suppose, getting through this counseling program, is part of God’s way of building and redefining my character and purifying my faith.  However, I will admit, right now this purification process is painful, almost too painful!  I press forward, Philippians 3:12 -14 “Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived, at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it.  But one thing I do:  Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.”  

Dear Lord,

     There is so much about this life that I can’t make sense of and right now you know my heart is enduring much pain.  Not sure why you have allowed so many tough and emotionally tough circumstances to come at me the past few months, but despite it all, I trust!  I know I can’t understand it all right now, but I know from past experiences that you are building my character and allowing situations to make me the person you desire me to become.  So, the process is painful!  I press forward knowing that you are right there with me.  I do ask, that  you protect my fragile heart in the process, I do not want my heart to be hardened and embittered in the process.  I need your peace so desperately in the process.  Thank you that you are always there!  Ready to pick me up and comfort my weary heart in the painful life struggles I trudge through.  Lord, I know you have already attainted Victory through your son!  I pray you guide me into the path of living a victorious life, The victory only achieved through a life of serving and honoring the King of Kings!

Your Daughter,




Happy 12th Birthday Robby


Happy Birthday Robby!  

12 years ago, you were first placed in my arms.  You were the most beautiful little red-headed baby I had ever seen.  I looked at you perfectly round cheeks and your thin baby soft red-hair and realized for the first time, “I’m a mom!”.  I instantly loved you!  Loved you with a love so deep and strong, it amazed me.  The sudden “overwhelming” sense of responsibility I felt in those precious few moments of hearing my very own baby crying, excited me and scared me!  I knew that the rest of my life would be dedicated to loving and protecting you!

Robby I wish I could say that you made my transition into mother easy, but I would be lying.  You were one tough baby!  The moment the doctors laid you on my chest, you began screaming.  Patient, you certainly WERE NOT!  God’s given “Mommy’s” milk, didn’t meet your expectations for a quick tummy filling up, so you screamed until the nurses broke down and gave you a bottle.  The bottle became your preferred nourishment and it broke my heart!

The moment we walked into our humble little home, you began screaming.  When you were hungry, you were downright HUNGRY and you wanted to eat RIGHT NOW!  I can’t count how many times you screamed and held your breath until you passed out, waiting for your bottle, which never took me more than 2 minutes to make.  

Mommy and Daddy didn’t sleep more than a few hours at a time, until well after you turned 3 years old.  Daddy and tried to let you scream it out and we soon realized this boy can scream, one night you screamed for 3 hours and still would have continued to scream had I not taken you out of your crib.

When you were 5 months old, yes truly 5 months old, I was trying to clean the bathroom and you kept scooting into the bathroom.  I put up a gate to keep you out of the bathroom, you began kicking that gate, and I’m not kidding you, you kicked the gate down.  

At 13 months old you crawled out of your bed and you never took a nap again!

When you were almost 3, you fell asleep in the hallway.  Daddy moved you to your bed at 12 a.m. and you woke up throwing the biggest 3 hour tantrum and flat out refusing to get in your bed.  That morning, mommy finally went to bed at 6 a.m.

Let’s just say you my son, you had ONE STRONG SPIRIT!

Robby, I thank you for those tough days!  I thank you for the stress and the tears often pouring out of this momma’s eyes.  You Robby, made me a “good” momma!  You taught me what it meant to be a mom!  You forced me, literally FORCED me to run to God for help! God came through for me many times and provided much needed answers as to how to deal with your tough little spirit.

Looking back, I wish I knew then, what I know now!  I wish I knew how to laugh, when you ran through mud.  I wish I knew how to divert, instead of fight to teach you obedience.  I wish I knew how to STOP and just hold you when you threw massive temper tantrums, instead of throwing a bigger temper tantrum with you.  I wish I would have looked for more opportunities to tickle away your fierce determination to touch a knick-knack, instead of smacking your tiny little hands to teach you the meaning of “no”!

Robby, I was new at this whole mom thing!  You my son, being the first born were the guinea pig, and we’re learning through parenting you.  

Robby you turned 12 today!  Today we enter another unknown, the teenage years!  I pray that God guides my mothering skills and I offer more grace and patience throughout your teen years!  I also pray that you don’t prove to be as difficult of a teenager as you were a baby and toddler!  

Robby, I am so proud of the responsible boy you have turned out to be!  You are determined!  You are a hard worker!  You have a special heart for obeying and pleasing God!  Your not perfect, but the few times you’ve done something wrong, I’ver personally observed your grieving heart.  You grieve over sin and want more than anything to please mommy and daddy, and most importantly deep within your heart is a true desire to please God.  I love this about you son!  I pray you never lose the genuineness of a heart so dedicated to pleasing your Savior!   

Happy Birthday Son!

I love you, Always!



All Of Me Belongs To Thee



Hymns play softly in the background.

Singing praises to the King!

This heart of mine filled with joy.

God is good!


Looking out the window.

I see the breeze gently blowing through the trees.

I see the light of Heaven shining on branches.

The branches reaching up to Heaven.


Hymns continue playing…

My heart filled with awe for my Savior.


Alone in my tranquil bedroom.

Like the branches of the trees,

My arms raise to praise the Father!

In reverence to His holiness, His goodness, His faithfulness!


My heart cries out inside me,

“It is well with my soul!”

“Have Thine Own Way, Lord!”

“I surrender all!”

“Because He Lives!”


Hymns of healing, God placed within the heart of men.

Hymns…  Powerful hymns…  Heavenly Hymns.  

Hymns providing peace…

Hymns breathing God’s love deep into my heart.

Hymns that walked saints into the arms of Jesus!


Heavens light,

Shines into the deepest places of my heart.

Heavens breeze,

Swiftly takes my breath in an awesome moment of pure contentment.


All my heart…  Praises the one glorious God!

All my heart… Sings praises to His name!

All my heart… Surrenders every desire at His feet.


All of me, Belongs to thee!  



Happy 6th Birthday to My Sweetest Little Daniel Man




You are six years old!  It seems only yesterday, I held your tiny little 6 pd 15 ounce jaundiced body in my arms.  Little boy…  What can I say?  

Your life has brought so much laughter, joy, and love into our worlds.  You older brothers were never big cuddlers, but you were a cuddler from the moment the Dr. first placed you in my arms.  Still, you love to hug and show affection.  You still love to take afternoon naps with mommy and always want me to rub your back.  I call you my “Little Love Bug”, because you are!  Daniel, as long as I can remember you have called me momma and at six years old you still call me “momma”.  Every time I hear “momma” come out of your mouth it melts my heart!  You, little boy melt my heart!  

Daddy nicknamed you Danny Panda and what a fitting name for you.   Our very own sweet, cuddly, and adorable panda bear.

Daniel, Mommy loves you so much!  I am so thankful God chose to put you in our family!  

Happy Birthday, little buddy!

Love Always,