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When God Shows Off; Be Ready To Be Knocked Off Your Feet

 

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{Today’s blog is dedicated to a kindred soul, a friend who loves God and His people whole-heartedly!!!}

This morning, my entire being is feeling God’s love so deeply, I feel I could scream it from the roof top… “God is good!  He truly answers prayers, the deepest yearnings of the heart! If you don’t know Him;  STOP what you’re doing… And RUN… RUN… RUN to Him! Life without Him… is miserable and no life at all!”  As I sit at my dining room table, having quiet time reading, praying, and listening for God’s voice, I feel God’s love so powerfully, that it {literally} hurts!  There have been only a few times in my walk of faith, where I have felt God’s love so deeply, that it has literally hurt… it’s pounding wildly inside my heart!

Today, for the first time in a long time, God is revealing his amazing plans!  He’s answering the deepest yearnings of my heart, the fervent prayers lifted over the past several years and months!  The excitement of seeing Him pave the way in my career as a Christian counselor and realizing His desire to use me as a vessel to reach God’s people!

The hope of my son’s new school, as an answer to the yearnings and deepest concerns of my heart!  The tears I’ve cried on this child’s behalf are innumerous and the fears run deep!  God is showing his unconditional love to me and my little boy!  He’s working to meet my little guy’s needs and calming this momma’s heart in the process!

He’s showing up… In countless ways!  In powerful ways!  In obvious ways!  In “HIS PERFECT WAY!

He’s ever-present in my life!

Let me tell you…. He’s {SHOWING OFF} big time!

I can envision him in Heaven, sitting with His son and the angels… Smiling and filled with pride and excitement;  As he looks down and beholds the joy, excitement, and awe washing over his child;  As he {finally} and in His perfect time… begins the process of laying out His plan!

Honestly, there is a part of me doubting His plan!  Actually, it’s more a feeling of fear; fearful of allowing myself to fall prey to such in depth eagerness, excitement, and joy.  At the risk of being let down {again}… The risk of getting hurt!

Maybe your feeling much of the same… Hope for the possibility of your dreams coming to fruition and hope that {things} will be different, even enriching.  Yet, this deep ridden doubt and fear that it’ll continue to be much of the same!

Friends, I am experiencing these feelings, fears, and doubt…  I wonder if you might be as well?

In prayer, the Holy Spirit revealed to my heart that Satan is working overtime to steal away my joy, excitement, and hope of future possibilities!  I refuse to allow Satan to have this effect on me!  I refuse to allow him to use his sly and manipulative tactics to render me ineffective for the Kingdom of God!

{Let’s make a deal!  Shall we?}

Let’s choose the path of hope!  Let’s cherish the joy and excitement; And believe in advance that He is the Almighty Healer, Miracle Worker, Comforter, Relationship Mender and Giver of all good things!  Let’s allow this joy to permeate through our entire being. After all, God promises to give us the desires of our hearts; as long as they align with his word and his calling over our life!

Let’s watch God show off!!!  Praise Him!  Applaud Him!  Thank Him!
Proverbs 16:9 – A man’s heart deviseth his way: but the LORD directeth his steps.

Psalms 138:8 – The LORD will perfect [that which] concerneth me: thy mercy, O LORD, [endureth] for ever: forsake not the works of thine own hands.

Epesians 2: 8 – For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: {it is} the gift of God. Not of works, lest any man should boast.

Blessings, Crystal

Dear Lord, I trust in you!  I love you!  I believe you, everything about who and what you are!  I applaud you!  I praise you!  I thank you!  Lord, show off!  I super excited and I refuse to allow Satan to cause me to doubt you.  You have ALWAYS shown up, ALWAYS comforted, ALWAYS loved, ALWAYS guided, ALWAYS planned my life in the most wonderful ways!  I could never doubt your amazing ways!  Lord, do your thing!  I will continue to trust!  I will shout your love from the rooftops for all to hear of your amazing love and power!  In Your Holy and Almighty name, Crystal” 

 

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Trusting God with the BIG “Somethings”

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Have you ever had a day when you just thought, prayed, and begged for answers and guidance all day?  Today, was that kind of day for me!  It was a “too much” thinking kind of a day.  The thoughts weren’t sad, negative, or self-defeating, like the one’s I’m typically accustomed too.  My thoughts today began with a sermon in church.  The sermon was wonderful;  cutting to the very core of the deepest places within my heart and soul.  It was wonderfully convicting, spiritually uplifting, and thought provoking.  The worship was AMAZING!  It’s been awhile since I have lifted my voice to Heaven in such an in depth manner.  Sincere worship lifted to my Father in heaven.  As I sang out, hands lifted to God, my heart felt at home!  Oh, how I miss such powerful worship and the feeling that God is standing right there with you!  I cherish these wonderful moments, when God is speaking and the Holy Spirit is so thick within the sanctuary, it actually feels like your inhaling the breath of God.  I walked out of the church, spirit renewed, heart convicted, and a fresh word permeating through my mind.  The power of God’s presence didn’t stop when I left the parking lot, it clung to me throughout my entire day.

Here I sit, writing at almost 12 a.m…  A plethora of thoughts have ravaged my mind and my heart is yearning for peace regarding “particular” issues in my life.  For quite some time, part of my spirit has felt like “somethings” are missing, not just little somethings, but a “BIG” somethings!  As I sit here thinking, praying, and absorbing the first peaceful moment in my house today, I realize this isn’t a feeling I can ignore any longer!  I must make peace with these “somethings” plaguing my heart, mind, and soul.  Why does God often allow these “somethings” in life, to carry on for lengthened periods of time?  I am fervently praying for guidance, wisdom, and supernatural understanding, as I attempt to sort out these overwhelming emotions and thoughts stirring within my heart and soul.  It is all too easy to shake my fist at God, when the answers I so desperately need are unavailable.  There have been moments in life, when I was angry with God,  Times when I felt alone and forgotten, times when I felt my answers were hitting a brick wall and bouncing right back.  Despite these moments, I have learned that God always shows up!  He’s never let me down!  Therefore, I will trust in Him!  I will continue to listen for His still small voice!  I will always pray for guidance! Why?  Because, God has proven himself real in my life time and time again.  Sometimes, his answers show up immediately and other times he’s made me wait!

I’ve learned;  The times God has made me wait the longest, he’s shown up the strongest!

I am thankful for a wonderful experience at church today!  I am thankful God spoke into my heart!  I will continue to wait for God to pave the way!  I will trust Him and continue serving Him with all of my heart, mind, and soul!

Why?  Because…

I know…

The times God has made me wait the longest, he’s shown up the strongest!

Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him, and he will act. Psalm 37:5Dear Heavenly Father,

You know my heart!  You know the big “somethings” that have been yanking on my heart for so long!  Lord, my heart yearns for what pleases you!  My heart longs to hear from you and with absolute clarity!  Lord, speak into my soul!  Teach me patience and comfort me as you prune away areas in my life, that fail to glorify you!  Lord, I lay these “somethings” at your feet and trust you will provide answers, clarity, and peace in your perfect timing!   When the time is right, in your perfect timing, I know you will show up in the most undeniable and miraculous way.  I am almost giddy thinking about how amazing you have been, how amazing you are, and how amazing you’ll continue to be in the future!  I am thankful for your love and guidance in every area of my life!  I trust you completely with my heart! I trust you completely with the BIG “somethings” in my life!

Your beloved daughter,

Crystal

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My First Love

The house is completely quiet, the children are in bed, and loneliness is setting in.   Seven days without the love of my life beside me… is taking a toll.  He’s been traveling abroad… His side of the bed is empty…  My heart longs for his closeness, for the tender touch of his hand through my hair, and the comfort of his presence.  He’s my best friend, {my favorite person}, the one who knows my deepest and darkest secrets, the one I can always talk to, the one I know always has my back, the one who considers my needs above his own… he’s my high school sweet heart… the love of my life!  As my heart yearns for the arms of my husband… I recall my first love.

Prior to my heart belonging to the love of my life, my husband, it belonged to my Heavenly Father.

Throughout high school, I recall the familiar feeling of loneliness.  In those lonely moments of my youth, I found peace and comfort of God’s love!  There were moments in my youth when I {literally} felt no one loved me, let alone felt cherished or fully accepted for {me}.. for who I was.  Many nights, I cried myself to sleep!  That feeling of intense loneliness ran deep and it interfered with my ability to sleep.  I was slapped with a diagnosis of {insomnia}…  Yet, I knew it wasn’t insomnia… it was a broken, battered, and lonely heart… simply longing for someone to love me.  The intense pain of loneliness kept me awake at night and it physically hurt.  Many of you reading this blog post, will not understand the depth of such intense pain. However, some of you know it all to well!  Some of you have lost a loved one, a spouse or a child, and every night you enter the bed only to be wakened by intense grief, loneliness, and despair!  Regardless, of the cause of your pain, I learned an important lesson during my dark moments of the soul…

{Lesson}… God is near the broken hearted!

Psalm 34:18 “The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”

It’s true!  When I was stuck deep in a bottomless pit, feeling lonely and hopeless, God became real to me… He taught me what love was… he whispered and guided my aimless spirit… and comforted me during those dark and lonely hours.

As a teenager, I recall lying in my bed, feeling such intense loneliness and pain, I {literally} felt death was the only answer to my pain!  Night after night, I longed for the pain to end… to be loved… and to feel like a {somebody}.  Each night, when my spirit was broken and lonely, God became my comfort and source of love!  I remember, my pillow soaked from tears… asking God to hold me and put his arms around me… he {did}.  Friends, God physically held me!  Within moments of asking God to hold me, I would feel a warmth wash over my body… and I would slowly drift off.

What I learned in my brokenness… is… God is {certainly} near the broken hearted!

Friends, God has performed miraculous healing within the depths of my spirit!  The {healing} all began in those moments, when God held me and began healing the heart of a broken, abandoned, and heart broken young girl.  His love is real… it’s unconditional, it’s life-altering, it’s forever, it’s healing, and it’s comforting!

This particular night, many years later, my heart longs to be near my husband, lover, & best friend… I am thankful for extra time to spend with my {first love}… my Heavenly Father!  Tonight, reading God’s word, raising my voice in the form of worship songs, and lifting my voice in fervent prayer, has completely fulfilled my soul!

The one that taught my heart to love…  The loving God who blessed this lonely young girl, with the man of my dreams… a man who loves me unconditionally and is {always} there to warm me on cold nights, hold me when I cry, and lead me to the foot of the cross!

Tonight, I am thankful for the {temporary} loneliness that lead me back to… {my first love}!!!

Tonight, I’m thankful that I will be reunited in a few short days…  with my best friend and love of my life!

 

Revelation 2:4 “”But I have this complaint against you. You don’t love me or each other as you did at first!”