Have you ever had a day when you just thought, prayed, and begged for answers and guidance all day? Today, was that kind of day for me! It was a “too much” thinking kind of a day. The thoughts weren’t sad, negative, or self-defeating, like the one’s I’m typically accustomed too. My thoughts today began with a sermon in church. The sermon was wonderful; cutting to the very core of the deepest places within my heart and soul. It was wonderfully convicting, spiritually uplifting, and thought provoking. The worship was AMAZING! It’s been awhile since I have lifted my voice to Heaven in such an in depth manner. Sincere worship lifted to my Father in heaven. As I sang out, hands lifted to God, my heart felt at home! Oh, how I miss such powerful worship and the feeling that God is standing right there with you! I cherish these wonderful moments, when God is speaking and the Holy Spirit is so thick within the sanctuary, it actually feels like your inhaling the breath of God. I walked out of the church, spirit renewed, heart convicted, and a fresh word permeating through my mind. The power of God’s presence didn’t stop when I left the parking lot, it clung to me throughout my entire day.
Here I sit, writing at almost 12 a.m… A plethora of thoughts have ravaged my mind and my heart is yearning for peace regarding “particular” issues in my life. For quite some time, part of my spirit has felt like “somethings” are missing, not just little somethings, but a “BIG” somethings! As I sit here thinking, praying, and absorbing the first peaceful moment in my house today, I realize this isn’t a feeling I can ignore any longer! I must make peace with these “somethings” plaguing my heart, mind, and soul. Why does God often allow these “somethings” in life, to carry on for lengthened periods of time? I am fervently praying for guidance, wisdom, and supernatural understanding, as I attempt to sort out these overwhelming emotions and thoughts stirring within my heart and soul. It is all too easy to shake my fist at God, when the answers I so desperately need are unavailable. There have been moments in life, when I was angry with God, Times when I felt alone and forgotten, times when I felt my answers were hitting a brick wall and bouncing right back. Despite these moments, I have learned that God always shows up! He’s never let me down! Therefore, I will trust in Him! I will continue to listen for His still small voice! I will always pray for guidance! Why? Because, God has proven himself real in my life time and time again. Sometimes, his answers show up immediately and other times he’s made me wait!
I’ve learned; The times God has made me wait the longest, he’s shown up the strongest!
I am thankful for a wonderful experience at church today! I am thankful God spoke into my heart! I will continue to wait for God to pave the way! I will trust Him and continue serving Him with all of my heart, mind, and soul!
The times God has made me wait the longest, he’s shown up the strongest!
Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him, and he will act. Psalm 37:5Dear Heavenly Father,
You know my heart! You know the big “somethings” that have been yanking on my heart for so long! Lord, my heart yearns for what pleases you! My heart longs to hear from you and with absolute clarity! Lord, speak into my soul! Teach me patience and comfort me as you prune away areas in my life, that fail to glorify you! Lord, I lay these “somethings” at your feet and trust you will provide answers, clarity, and peace in your perfect timing! When the time is right, in your perfect timing, I know you will show up in the most undeniable and miraculous way. I am almost giddy thinking about how amazing you have been, how amazing you are, and how amazing you’ll continue to be in the future! I am thankful for your love and guidance in every area of my life! I trust you completely with my heart! I trust you completely with the BIG “somethings” in my life!
Your beloved daughter,