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God’s Truths When You’ve Been Hurt

Amazing how Satan plans attacks when we’re already weakened. A family member, who I do not communicate with because she is quite toxic and full of anger, completely and out of the blue, for no reason at all sent me a FB message. This isn’t the first time this person has verbally assaulted me, in the message she attempted to trash my character, claimed she knew my “evil” thoughts and motives on certain matters, even brought up completely untrue things, just to ensure my heart was sliced deeply. Which it was! Although, this message hit hard and definitely broke my heart and caused me many tears, it also lead me to Jesus in prayer. Which was refreshing and healing!

I lay here in the other side of the hurt, unable to sleep, as God reminded me several profound truths. I wanted to write them out, as I’m certain I’m not alone in having someone hurt me with a verbal thrashing and the pain it can leave behind. I thought, perhaps
there’s someone else out there who has endured the foul side of another’s bad day. If someone has been unkind to you, it is my hope and prayer that you find peace in these truths.

Truths Revealed During My Prayer Time

1.) People project their feelings toward themself onto others.

I know this is exactly what happened tonight. The hatred and anger has nothing to do with me, but their own world of pain. I have walked away from the dysfunction, simply because it is a form of toxicity that is hazardous to one’s mental health. Thus, I’m not around enough to create such hatred and bitterness. God reminded of of the true condition of their hearts, lost, empty, defeated, and without hope. He whispered to my heart… Pray for her!

Mathew 5:44 “But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;”

2.). My identity is in Jesus Christ’s unconditional love and acceptance of me.

My identity is not in the defeating untruths poured onto me. I belong to Jesus! He is the only one who has a say in my value and worth! I will rest in His promises and in His unconditional love for me! I will not allow Satan’s attack to shred my ability to serve God whole-heartedly!

Galatians 2:20 “ I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.”

3.) My only job is to love, serve, and please God!

It is not my job to make sure everyone is happy with me. It is my job to treat people in a Christ-like manner and show His love to this se in need.

In fact, living for Jesus has a way of making many people unhappy and insecure. Jesus was perfect and most wanted him crucified. I live for Him, should I expect less, even though His word says; “We will be persecuted for His sake.”

Galations 1:10 “Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.”

4.) People will have to answer for the sins they commit on this Earth. It may feel like they get off Scott free when they attack with such hatred and you refrain from “giving it to them”. It wouldn’t help! Trust me, I’ve learned this the hard way! God will take care of it and I can hand it over to him.

Romans 12:19 “Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: ‘It is mine to avenge; I will repay,’ says the Lord.”

5.) Never lose hope! I’ve spent many years praying for my family members to repent and turn their hearts to God! At times, especially after getting these nasty grams, it can begin to feel hopeless. Yet, we are called to never lose hope!

2 Corinthians 4:16-18 “Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day.”

Friends, Having people spew hatred, bitterness, and lies at you is extremely painful! I know this all too well! I am thankful that God knows what we’re feeling and identifies with our heartache and is always ready to comfort us and show us his loving truths!

Hebrews 4:14 & 15 “Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has ascended into heaven, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are, yet he did not sin.”

May you be comforted, as I was comforted by our loving Heavenly Father!

Blessings, Crystal

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Grandma’s Legacy

Thought I was ready to say goodbye. Years of watching you suffer made me cry.

You told me you were ready. Month after month your balance grew more unsteady.

Slowly, I watched your body decline. When we’d visit you were always on cloud nine.

You provided plenty of love and wisdom. You were my greatest support system.

We used to talk on the phone for hours everyday. We always had a lot to say.

You showed your love with your deeds. Always made sure to meet my needs.

Popcorn stories before bed and making paper hats. I will always cherish our many long chats.

So many precious memories. Sharing our dreams, singing songs, talking, and drawing our most beautiful trees.

You were always caring and sentimental. Grandma, you sure made my life special!

Thank you for giving me your best. Because of you, my life was truly blessed!

Grandma, you deserve the shiniest crown. And Heaven’s finest gown.

Until we meet in Heaven’s jubilee! I will forever be your legacy.

RIP Grandma Dorothy! 5/3/1932 – 1/5/21. Until I See You Again!

It’s not goodbye! It’s see you later!

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Until I See You Again In Heaven

Tuesday, January 5th @ 7:24 p.m. my sweet grandmother crossed over into Heaven! I haven’t been able to post about her loss and my heart has been shattered.

I’m still not quite ready to put into words exactly how I feel since her passing. Primarily, because a emptiness has causes a tremendous heaviness and pain within my heart!

I was blessed to be there and hold her hand, as she left this old world and took Jesus’s hand! My heart is grieving, which is a sign that I was loved by my grandmother! The two of us had a very special bond! I was lucky to have the most amazing grandmother in the world!

RIP Grandma Dorothy

5/3/1932 – 1/5/21

“We do not grieve like those with no hope!”

Blessings, Crystal

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Happy New Year 2021

Happy New Year and welcome 2021! As I ponder the farewell of 2020, I am overcome
with emotion! An entire year is filled with abundant memories; Many positive and many difficult!

The last 1 1/2 years our family has faced significant trials, trauma, heartache, transition, and many hardships. This all endured in the midst of Covid hitting and the world being shaken up and everything literally being turned upside down. I recall on January 1st of 2020 telling a friend that I was more than glad to say goodbye to 2019. God immediately convicted my heart. “Crystal, yes 2019
was an extremely difficult year, but I have been good! Think about all the blessings this year brought!” I took note of the firm but gentle message from the Lord and he began showing me his heart!

The latter half of 2019 was traumatic for me and my family, as my niece (who was much like a daughter) was hit by a car and was in a coma for 6 months and passed away in December of 2019. Despite the intensity of the tribulation of 2019, God was still faithful! Thus, my new year’s resolution for 2020 was to see the good gifts from God, even in the midst of painful circumstances!

I wish I could say that 2020 was a breeze, much to the contrary! 2020 brought with it a plethora of painful circumstances and difficult transitions! However, I hung to God’s conviction to continue to see the good in the midst of trials! To never fail to see God’s provision in the midst of painful circumstances! It sure is easy to lose sight of God when life is filled with stressful situations and broken hearts!

True to his promise, God remained faithful in the midst of every trial that occurred in 2020! One thing that I’ve come to see over the past several tumultuous years, is that in the midst of trials, God blesses us in tremendous ways! We only have to pay attention to see God carrying us through the hardship surrounding our lives!

In the midst of suffering God has shown up in His word and quiet times, precious moments with family, beautiful nature, encouraging friends, fun-filled trips, unexpected blessings, always meeting our needs, and showing us that he is in control!

This year, I am not “happy” to see 2020 pass by! Despite, the fact that 2020 was filled with many valley’s! It was in fact a year of trials, learning, growing, and many stressful moments! God revealed in very real ways the spiritual realization, that it is in the valley’s we grow! The year 2020 was a year our family grew closer to God and one another, our marriage flourished, we came to realize our truest friends, our trials pushed us into the arms of Jesus, and God revealed that he alone is our only constant! 2020 also revealed that God sometimes asks us to leave our homes, only to see what we left for unravel before our eyes! Leaving us questioning His plans and reasoning! Yet, God is faithful and His plans for his children are for us to prosper and never to harm us! I know this much, God has a plan! One day we will see it fully, for now we trust that He knows what he’s doing!

I don’t have all the answers and I certainly can’t read into the future; I can trust with 100 percent certainty, that God is faithful and he works all things out for the good of those who love Him!

Sadly, I say goodbye to 2020! I gladly welcome 2021! It would sure be nice to endure a mountain top experience for awhile. However, if God chooses to allow more valley’s; I know we will be just fine! God’s plans are always the best! He really does love His children and desire for us to prosper and serve and love him solely and completely!

New Year’s spiritual Resolution for 2021… “To trust that God is who He says He is and He will do what He says He will do!”

I will pray hard! I will continue living for God! Trusting Him and His plans for our lives! Knowing that He has us on a path, a path that was especially prepared for those who follow him!

Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans for you to prosper and never to harm you!”

Romans 8:28 “All things work for good to those who love the Lord and are called according to His purpose!”

Blessings, Crystal