Wow! When your up late praying about an overwhelming, stressful, and ultimately difficult situation. You pray for God to lead you to answers and this video comes up! Spoke right straight to my heart! Pierced the very core of my heart and my wicked, sinful, and hurting flesh crumbled to the ground! I can’t imagine living a life without Christ at the center! Christ uses “whatever” means to speak truth to my heart and works to get my attention! So thankful for this message of hardship, grace, & forgiveness!
Suddenly, I don’t feel like such a “sound” Christian… I feel like a baby needing to be reminded of the most basic facets of the gospel! Purpose for our difficulty & tension, forgiveness for others through the forgiveness we’ve received, and grace to be human and to allow others the grace to be human!
To think… my problems today seemed so overwhelming and huge… then I watched this video and God surely got my attention! Corrie Ten Boom a Hallacaust survivor is asked to forgive a soldier who tormented her almost to death and succeeded in killing her sister! Yep, my struggle today was nothing! Why, did I allow this struggle
to steal my joy? Cause tightness in my chest? Sabotage my peace? Take my eyes off of Jesus? Why, am I so weak? Yet, other times, I feel so strong?
“We like sheep have gone astray!” After all these years of following Christ, why do I still find myself wandering away from the truth I know? Why??? Why do I fail to relax knowing God in in control, even when my husband tells me, “Relax, God is in control!”
It’s because I’m human! I’m a sinner, saved by grace! I am not God!
I now focus on getting my heart right with God! Not allowing Satan to instill tremendous shame and guilt, but to allow God to teach, comfort, and guide me into his truth, understanding, grace, love, and forgiveness! “Worldly sorrow brings death, Godly sorrow brings repentance, that leads to life abundantly!”
Thank you God for loving me too much to keep me in a place of brokenness, forgive, and trust!