The Flame Within

My house is sooooooo quiet.  In a 2,000 square foot house with four children, silence really stands out!  This morning I woke up at 4:30, I just WOKE up!  Wide awake at 4:30 a.m.!!!  I laid in bed and tried with all my might to fall back into deep sleep, but all my attempts failed.  Thus, I got out of bed, made a cup of coffee, and was suddenly filled with utter peace.  Looking around my silent house, the knowledge that the 5 people I love the most are healthy and blissfully ASLEEP, fills my heart with complete gratitude.  

This awesome peace I feel at this very minute, stands out as a symptomatic response of true healing in my life!  You see, my childhood was quite painful.  At the age of 15, I found Jesus in a little Baptist Church down the street from my home.  Shortly after meeting Jesus, God allowed me to move out of my childhood home, into a wonderful family’s home from my church.  Once I was removed from my childhood home environment, the realization of the damage of many years of abuse and neglect, hit me like a Tsunami.  In all honesty, it shook my world!  This peace I feel at this moment, was not a feeling I EVER felt in my childhood, teenage years, or even my early adult life!  

God has healed my childhood hurts in abundant doses!  As a child, teen, or young adult, I could have NEVER imagined the peace I feel at this moment!  

I’m thankful God awakened me at 4:30 a.m.!  This morning as my husband and four children, sleep blissfully in their beds, my heart is wide awake, praising the Father for the peace, for the joy, for the victory, I’m feeling on this darkened pre-sunrised morning!

Dear Father in Heaven,

My heart is awakened to the peace that is only found through an intimate relationship with you!  Lord, I praise you for the joy, the peace, the love in my heart and in my home!  I thank you for healing my wounded heart!  I thank you for making yourself so very real to me in the midst of my brokenness!  I thank you for changing the direction of my life at the early age of 15.  I praise you this morning!  Thank you for awakening my spirit to arise and once again REALIZE the healing that has taken root in the pit of my heart!  The healing only found through your love!  Thank you Lord, for literally plucking me out of a life destined for dysfunction!  Thank you for allowing my pain and thank you for turning my ashes into beauty!  You are AMAZING!

Blessings, 

Crystal 

I love this song by Fernando Ortega!  I hope you take a moment to listen to this amazing song!  I sing this song in praise to the Father! Click and praise the Holy Father with me!  

Give Me Jesus

In the morning when I rise,

In the morning when I rise,

in the morning when I rise,

Give me Jesus!

Give me Jesus!

Give me Jesus!

You can have all this world,

but Give me Jesus!

And when I am alone!

Oh, and when I am alone!

And when I am alone!

Give me Jesus!

Give me Jesus!

Give me Jesus!

You can have all this world,

but give me Jesus!

And when I come to die!

And when I come to die!

And when I come to die,

Give me Jesus!

Give me Jesus!

Give me Jesus!

You can have all this world,!

You can have all this world!

You can have all this world, 

but Give me Jesus!