The Flame Within

"All Scripture is inspired by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, for training in righteousness; so that the man of God may be adequate, equipped for every good work." 2 Timothy 3:16-17

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    My heart is broken.

    Words refuse to go unspoken.

    So many hurting people.

    Longing for a hidden steeple.

    People die… people grieve.

    Always afraid when people leave.

    People living daily with heart-wrenching trauma.

    Unknowingly causing deep-rooted drama.

    We judge the broken.

    Hurt the hurting and soft-spoken.

    We too are broken and incomplete.

    Yet, always thinking we are of the elite.

    Conquering this Earth is fiercely tough.

    Learning to let go and deal with our stuff.

    Few escape this world unscathed.

    Continually feeling betrayed.

    Living and pain go hand and hand.

    Continually fearing a reprimand.

    Where is the hope?

    When we’re at the end of our rope.

    Where can we turn?

    When the world seems stern.

    Look to the skies.

    When your tired of  all the lies.

    Seek the creator of the Earth and sky.

    God is always there… He promises to hear your cry.

    Remember… This too shall pass.

    Your pain will not last.

    Always remember… NO FEELING IS FINAL!!!

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    Like a shark just beneath the ocean waters,

    uncertainty lurks.

    The unknowns of the future,

    stealing my comfort of familiarity.

    Like secretive dolphins waiting to put on a good show,

    God waits to amaze.

    In times of uncertainty,

    my faith is challenged.

    My doubts shift my focus away from God,

    threatening to steal my firm foundation.

    Life’s circumstances are fickle,

    God’s promises steady and true

    Like the creatures of the sea,.

    I take my doubts, my fears, my human weaknesses…

    the future’s unknowns…

    To the one who holds the future…

    To the one who holds my heart…

    To the one who guides my steps…

    To the one who continually calms my deepest fears.

    To the God who has never left me stranded.

    He awaits to amaze me,

    With His Beautiful purpose,

    His plan revealed.

    “I love how God speaks to my heart through song… here is a song He used to speak to my heart today!”

    I Will Trust In You

    Letting go of every single dream
    I lay each one down at Your feet
    Every moment of my wandering
    Never changes what You see

    I’ve tried to win this war I confess
    My hands are weary I need Your rest
    Mighty Warrior, King of the fight
    No matter what I face, You’re by my side

    When You don’t move the mountains I’m needing You to move
    When You don’t part the waters I wish I could walk through
    When You don’t give the answers as I cry out to You
    I will trust, I will trust, I will trust in You!

    Truth is, You know what tomorrow brings
    There’s not a day ahead You have not seen
    So, in all things be my life and breath
    I want what You want Lord and nothing less

    When You don’t move the mountains I’m needing You to move
    When You don’t part the waters I wish I could walk through
    When You don’t give the answers as I cry out to You
    I will trust, I will trust, I will trust in You!

    You are my strength and comfort
    You are my steady hand
    You are my firm foundation; the rock on which I stand

    Your ways are always higher
    Your plans are always good
    There’s not a place where I’ll go, You’ve not already stood

    When You don’t move the mountains I’m needing You to move
    When You don’t part the waters I wish I could walk through
    When You don’t give the answers as I cry out to You
    I will trust, I will trust, I will trust in You!

    I will trust in You!

    Psalm 9:10 “Those who know your name will trust in you, for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you.”
    Psalm 20:7 “Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the LORD our God.”
    Proverbs 3:5-6 “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”
    Blessings, Crystal Ridlon
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    The familiar sand squishes through my toes,

    As the familiar sensation of your hand covers mine.

    We walk along the same beach,

    Where 15 years before we walked as newly weds.

    Young… In love… Uncertain as to the events that lay ahead.

    Babies… financial struggles… graduate school,

    Laughter… quarrels… and undying devotion.

    Through the joys, the sorrows, and the trials,

    We walk together…

    Hand & hand…

    Heart to heart…

    Soul to soul…

    We love together.

    Marital bliss… sometimes.

    Marital discord… all too often.

    Marital commitment… The glue that  holds us together.

    Our commitment made to God…

    The key to a successful marriage.

    The vows we made before God, ourselves, each other, family, and friends…

    The beginning of lifelong love.

    Our love… 15 years later,

    Stronger…

    Deeper…

    Richer…

    Purer…

    With each day that passes,

    Praying together… living together…

    Serving one another… encouraging one another…

    Challenging the other… building up the other…

    These are the ingredients to… A happy marriage.

    A love built on undying commitment,

    Hearts refusing to shrivel in bitterness,

    Determination to continually forgive,

    A love built on our devotion to serving … the One True God… TOGETHER!

    This… my love… is “TRUE LOVE”!!!

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    This morning my “runner dog” took advantage of my 3 year old daughter opening the door.  The moment she opened the door, my dog “Lego”, dashed out of the house.  My 13 year old son went after the dog, but he often struggles to catch him.  The dog mistakes my son running after him, as a game and runs faster and farther away.  My son has good intentions of running after the dog, but always ends up chasing him further and further away.  This morning my 13 year old jumped on his bike, as means of chasing after Lego.  Today his chasing endeavor caused a huge ordeal…

    We live on a quiet cul-de-sac and typically there is not much traffic.  However, our street ends in a T.  The cross road at the end of the T can be a bit more dangerous, as cars are known for flying in this area.  My dog began running after some large huskies, that could have easily eaten him alive.  My son in a frenzy chased the dog, trying to save him, and failed to look both ways at the T.  A large black truck came to an abrupt stop {praise the Lord} as we all stood there in shock, all the while the dog was almost hit by several cars.  This chasing ended shorty, after I {mom} ran down the street with a bag of pepperoni and lulled Lego with tasty treats, patience, and {no} chasing.  After only a few short minutes, the dog was placed on a leash, and we all walked safely back to the house.

    Once in the house, like any good mother, I scolded my son for his failure to look both ways.  I asked him if it scared him, which he admitted it did.  I explained how much we would be hurt if something happened to him and told him we love the dog, but not near as much as we love him.  I reminded him of the “techniques” we use for retrieving the dog and decided it was time for me to engage in some {serious dog obedience training}.

    After the hype calmed down…

    I began pondering this event.

    I thought to myself…

    “How often do we chase things with all our might and end up further and further away from our original destination?”

    You see…  My son had the best of intentions…  He wanted to catch our dog and bring him back to safety.

    So… What went wrong?

    He failed to recall the “dog catching” skills we taught him… the “technique” to catching the dog. He acted on impulse and chased the dog, rather than taking a moment to recall the skills we taught him regarding catching Lego.  My son is a fast runner and thought he would use his track-fit legs to catch the dog.  The dog is faster, smaller, and quite “skilled” at getting away from his masters.  Therefore, the “technique” is the only thing that works… pepperoni, patience, and {never} chasing…

    What does all this have to do with you and me?

    You see… How often do we chase after things we think we need… desire… or want?

    This frantic chase is often correlated to a subconscious fear of rejection or failure.

    Why the chase?

    We feel this innate desire to control our worlds… to follow our instincts… to do …{something}.

    However…

    We usually end up frazzled and without the “thing” we were chasing to begin with.

    After the dog was safely home.

    I was calm, relaxed, and breathing normally.

    My son… was out of breath… frazzled… heart racing… exhausted… and angry.

    You see… the chase left him stressed and upset.

    The “technique” and active patience left me feeling relaxed and poised.

    I want to ask you an important question…

    What are you chasing?

    In all the chasing do you continually find your further and further away from your goal?

    You see… God has it all outlined in his word.  We need only… read and study his word. Always be sure to listen to the “still small voice” that keeps us grounded in this frenzied and hurried world we live in.

    We can live peaceful… not frenzied lives.

    Rather than continually scurrying through life… chasing… chasing… chasing.

    Resulting in exhaustion… stress… and overwhelming weariness.

    Only to come to the realization that we have failed to achieve the goal we set out to achieve.

    Following God is {always} the right way… He will never lead us astray!!!

    STOP… chasing… chasing… chasing.

    {Look up to the Heavens and ask for the wisdom and guidance…  I promise you will find your more grounded, at peace, and relaxed.}

    Most importantly… You will find life doesn’t have to be a frantic… empty… and exhausting chase.

    When God is your pilot and you are the co-pilot — you will reach your destination.

    {I Promise!!!}

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    The past several days, I have come down with the flu, which caused a severe sinus infection, double ear infection, tonsilitus, and bronchialitus.  Prior to coming down with this illness, I was in St. Louis taking care of a traumatic family situation.  The day I returned from St. Louis, I began feeling sick, pretty sure I caught this flu from the hospital.  Needless to say, I have been under the weather. Today is the first day I have been able to sit up on the couch for more than 15 minutes.  Although, my body lay in bed, feeling sicker than I can remember in a long time.  I still took notice of the activities surrounding me!

    What I noticed while lying in bed sick?

    1. I noticed the way my husband took care of me.

    {He made me pudding, brought me beverages, kissed my forehead, took care of the children, and the house. He regularly checked on me and asked me if I was okay, or if I needed anything.  His commitment to his family and God is astounding!}  ((Yes, I have one amazing guy!!!))

    2. I noticed the concerned looks on my children’s faces and the tender way they tried to look after their mom.

    {All four of them tried to take care of me in their own unique way, which truly meant the world to me.  The four sweetest little people in the world live in my home, came from my womb, and love their momma!  A mother couldn’t ask for better kids!!!}

    3. I noticed the text messages and Facebook messages from friends… encouraging and praying for me.

    {I have some of the world’s greatest friends, sister’s in Christ… whom always encourage, love, and pray for the needs of others. }

    4. I noticed the way my little doggy, never left my side.

    {He cuddled in my arms, rested his head on my leg, and genuinely showed love for his master.  He was even more behaved than normal, which was quite shocking.}

    5. I noticed the way, my colleagues and professors, told me to rest, take it easy, and not to worry about anything.

    6.  Most importantly, I noticed how much I truly missed being “me”!  

    {I missed putting my children to bed, reading them books, singing them songs, taking care of their boo boo’s. I missed being able to handle their sibling squabbles and feeling well enough to help them pick up their rooms.  I missed being able to clean my house, do the laundry, and go to the store.  I missed being at work, counseling my clients, and being a light to the world around me!  It’s true… I missed being “me”… I missed my daily routine, the routine that often stresses and overwhelms me!  Several days of being sick has a unique way of revealing how much I truly love being “me”!

    Philippians 2:4

    “Do not merely look out for your own personal interests, but also for the interests of others.”

    Galatians 6:10

    “So then, while we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, and especially to those who are of the household of the faith.”
    1 Timothy 5:8“But if anyone does not provide for his own, and especially for those in his household, he has denied the faith and is worse than an unbeliever.”

    Friends, Take a moment to look around and thank God for you life… for your family… your friends… your job! Thank him for making you… “you”!!!  What a gift “you” are!!!

    Blessings, Crystal Ridlon

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    I began my internship in counseling 2 months ago.  For this reason, I have been what I refer to as “blessedly busy”!  The past 12 years I have been a stay-at-home mother and it has been a huge transition to being a working woman and momma of 4 wonderful children.  I have truly been blessed throughout my internship process this far.  I have 2 wonderful supervisors… amazing colleagues… and most importantly God supporting me.  The support I have from many people in my life… continues to inspire me to press on toward the goal.  There have been many stressful days… a few tears… and daily reminders that this is what I was made to do.  God has called me to the helping profession.  He has called me to walk alongside His people… as they endure pain, hardships, and trials.  Currently my position is in a secular field.  In all honesty, I was fearful of counseling without openly being able to share my faith.  You know what I have realized?  It’s not that hard… I can’t say out loud the words, “God loves you”, but I can say… “You are special! You matter!  Your life can be different!”  I can empower them to endure!  I can listen with an empathetic heart!  I can seek out their strengths and good qualities!  I can encourage their weary spirits!  God still speaks through my life as I seek to walk alongside my clients.  I am busy… busy… busy!  I couldn’t imagine my life any other way!  Blessings, Crystal Ridlon

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    My son Robby wrote this a few nights ago and shared it with me this evening.  I have one young man who truly has a heart for the Lord!  I am so proud to be the mother of this amazing “blooming” writer!  I know God has big plans for Robby in the future.  I can’t wait to see all the amazing things he does for God in his life!  Enjoy a special poem written by my oldest son Robby ~ 12 years old.

    When Troubles Come

    When troubles come, where do you go?

    Do you hide and cry,

    or do you face it with much pain,

    or do you just try not to care?

    As for me, when troubles come, I take them to the Lord above.

    When troubles come I stand firm.

    When troubles come,

    when temptation is all around me,

    I pray to the Lord above to give me strength.

    When troubles come,

    do you learn and accept,

    or do you disobey all the more to prove your side?

    When troubles come, here’s a piece of advice,

    “Pray to the Holy Father for comfort, guidance, and strength.”

    When troubles come.

    “Written by Robby Ridlon ~ February 1, 2015”

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    This is a friend.

    I found out what a true friend… “truly”… is.

    Not through one single person… but through a few good women.

    A few good women… a few good hearts.

    Their hearts are a beautiful representation of the heart of God.  These beautiful women are obeying God’s call… taking on the extra stress of homework… on top of their other life duties… full time jobs, wives, and mothers.

    By the great. .. great… great grace of God… he placed these women in my life.

    Women not afraid to be human… not afraid to encourage, love, or to take on the pain of others.

    Their laughter… eruptive.

    Their tears… real.

    Their love… unconditional.

    Their joy… contagious.

    Their hearts… pure.

    I have found… “golden” friendships.

    God-fearing… caring… beautiful friendships.

    Forever friendships…

    I am truly thankful!!!

    “Lord, Thank you for leading me these women.  Women you’ve called to be your counselors… women you’ve trusted with the hearts of your hurting children.  Thank you for the blessing… for joining together the hearts of this group of ladies.  Thank you for Liberty University’s Christian Counseling program, a place to reunite with my dear sisters in Christ. Thank you for these Godly women who aren’t afraid to… hold a hand…  or embrace a friend through their tears.  Women who aren’t afraid to encourage one another in despair…  and aren’t afraid to kiss a friend’s cheek.  These women have shown me the “truest” example of Christian sisterhood!  I thank you, Lord, when I look into their eyes, I see a resemblance of my own heart.  I see a love for God so strong, so determined, so caring, and so compassionate.  I see…. your future counselors… these ladies you’ve hand picked… to walk beside your weary flock.  I pray you….continue to guide, protect, and bless these sisters. .. these women I love with my whole heart.   Continue to increase their faith, knowledge, and trust in you. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!  Thank you for these daughters of yours… my “counseling” sisters in Christ!!!”

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    Recently I have neglected my blog, but I have had a good excuse.  My Master’s Degree as a Mental Health Counselor is in it’s final stages.  I am flying out today to attend my last of my 4 on campus intensives.  I will take the CPCE National Counselor Exam January 24th…. Prayers appreciated!  When I return I immediately begin at my 2 internship sites.  This next step is mixed with abundant nerves and excitement!  I am leaving my hubby and kiddos for the last time for an intensive… this makes my heart glad!  Friends, God is good!  He has brought me to this place in my life… He is leading me every step of the way… Even when I lost faith, doubted his plan, and struggled, He was there to pick me up!  He’s real!  He’s there!  He LOVES!!!  Thank you for your prayers!

    Blessings, Crystal

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    Today is the 10th birthday of Christopher Lucas!  This little boy has one unique outlook on life.  He views the world in a do what’s right fashion, has a sensitive & tender heart, and is smart… and I mean smart!

    I wouldn’t doubt if he knew more facts than I…  Actually… he does… he amazes me at times with the facts that pop out of his mouth.

    He loves to read!  He LOVES to read!  Loves playing legos with his brothers.  Has a determination to please his mom and dad… but hasn’t a care in the world about what others think of him.

    I admire his outlook on life… As his mom… I feel his positive outlook on life will help him succeed in life!

    Welcome to 10 buddy!  I am so very proud of you… who you are… and all that you stand for in this life!

    Happy Birthday,

    Love Forever, Mom