The “Meaning” Junkie!

This morning during my devotional, God whispered to my heart! It was a powerful and much needed word. God spoke in the way only He does, straight to my heart, not an audible sound, but a direct message to my spirit!

Here’s the story!

There is tremendous uncertainly in our family’s life, once again! Looking for God’s heeding, guidance, and fervently seeking wisdom. The past several days my spirit has been a bit down and doubt has been attempting to invade.

There seems to be more questions than answers. This is a true challenge for this girl who likes to have things figured out! I’m a “meaning” junkie! If I can see the spiritual meaning in a challenge, I can thrive! Yet, presently this has been more unclear than clear. I’m praying, seeking, and awaiting for answers and understanding!

In all honesty, I’m fighting the fight! The battle is thick, but God is greater! Thankfully, I have been allowing the struggle to send me to the feet of Christ, prayer, God’s word, worship, and fellowship with other Christians. I don’t want to think about where I’d be emotionally, physically, and spiritually if this weren’t the case. Trust me, I’ve been there too many times to count! I’m learning, slowly but surely!

It is during these times that God speaks in gentle, yet firm messages! This morning I continued reading slowly through Psalms and today was a continuation of 119. Powerful and in depth passage of scripture! What a powerful word to the heart of one unsure of the path before? To one who is desperately searching and seeking God’s wisdom regarding next steps. I am a girl, who desires to be in God’s will more than anything! This is my heart! My prayer is to always be close enough to God to discern his voice and his will!

During this precious time with God, my heart was drawn to ….

Mathew Chapter 6, where the message is clear… “Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow has enough trouble of it’s own. God cares about the birds… How much more does he love and care for us, His beloved children.”

Wow! What a word of comfort for one caught up in a fearful place of uncertainty and fear! Thank you, Lord!

Sitting there with tears gently flowing down my cheeks… God whispers to my heart, “Crystal, remember the man you met yesterday?” What a reminder!

Wow! Here’s that story…

Driving to lunch after church, there sat a homeless man at the bus stop and he had his blue tooth speaker and was jamming to one of my favorite worship songs. I said to him out the car window, “Great song! One of my favorites!” He responded, “I may be homeless, but I still love Jesus!” Wow, his comment took me by surprise! I replied, “Amen, brother! Keep the faith! Happy Easter!”

Philippians 4:11-13 “As I sat there this morning plagued with fear, uncertainty, and disappointment… God reminded me that through Him we can be content, joy filled, and at peace regardless of our present situation. “I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all this through him who gives me strength.”

I was reminded that I don’t need to fear my circumstances, because God is our comforter no matter our situation! I don’t anticipate being homeless, but even if life takes me one day in the future… With a Christ, I will be okay! With Christ, we’re always okay!

Friends, Are you weighted down by fear, confusion, and uncertainty? God is there in the uncertainty and struggle. Lean into Him! He’s got you!

“Keep the faith!”
Blessings, Crystal


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